This past week I’ve been wrestling with the idea of “easy.”
This past year or so has been super hard; probably one of the most challenging seasons of my life to date… or at least it’s in the top 5 most difficult seasons.
So, because of this hard season, I’ve been crying out to God:
“I’m so unhappy. Lord, I love living here in the U.S. but it’s been so hard, I just feel so dissatisfied, disillusioned and unhappy. I can’t keep doing this. I feel alone and it’s too hard. The price you’re asking me to pay is too high.”
The Lord is so kind and he spoke so gently and clearly. He said:
“No, you’re not unhappy, dissatisfied and disillusioned, you’re wanting “easy” and I never promised you that. Easy doesn’t grow you. Easy doesn’t produce character. Easy doesn’t make you more like me.”
WOW! The Lord was sooooo right, I was wanting “easy.” I felt so rebuked in that moment. He hit that nail on the head. I was’t unhappy … I wanted easy! I wasn’t feeling like it was all too hard … I simply wanted easy!
So, this week I’ve been wrestling with this notion of “easy.” Do you ever long for a season of “Easy?”
Tonight, as I continue to meditate on all that God is speaking to me, I stumbled across Sarah Reeve’s song “Easy.”
The lyrics of “Easy” put so perfectly into words my wrestle in this season. The chorus and bridge declare this:
I thought I wanted it easy but easy never needed you
Just because I’m feeling weak and feeling lonely
Doesn’t make it true
‘Cause I know I’m only human
And I don’t know what I’m doing
I thought I wanted it easy but easy never needed you…….
I thought I wanted it easy
I thought I knew what to do
But I’d rather be needy
Always needing You
This song has wrecked me tonight. Here it is…… listen to this gem and let it speak to your heart tonight as you learn to let go of “easy” and rely on HIM!
I really and truly thought I wanted it easy but Philippians 3:19 in The Message version says this:
18 There are many out there taking other paths, choosing other goals, and trying to get you to go along with them. I’ve warned you of them many times; sadly, I’m having to do it again. All they want is easy street. They hate Christ’s Cross.19 But, easy street is a dead-end street…..
Ouch! “All they want is easy street. They hate Christ’s cross…….. easy street is a dead-end street!” I truly believe so much of the western world identifies with the victorious aspect of Christ’s death but I think we have a lot to learn from the suffering aspect of the cross too. May we never come to hate Christ’s cross as Philippians says. Our flesh cries out for “easy” but it doesn’t produce any eternal fruit like it does when times are hard and we are identifying with the suffering of Christ and the Cross. Be encouraged if you’re facing some challenges, you are developing fruit in your life that doesn’t grow in seasons of “easy.”
I honestly thought I wanted life to be easy but easy doesn’t need Christ. Easy doesn’t need community. Easy doesn’t need roots to go down deep. Easy doesn’t need perseverance. Instead, I am learning to be thankful for the difficult times when life isn’t easy as it makes us cling to Christ and it sure does make us grow. It says in James 1:3-4
“You know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”
So, if you’re facing a challenging season, where your heart longs for “easy,” know that you are developing eternal fruit, you are learning more about the wonderful, all sufficient character of God. And…. remember, you really don’t want easy….. desire the growth and the maturity this challenge will bring so you that will be “mature, complete, not lacking anything.”